I will never forget having fallen in love, or saying "I love you" for the first time. Unfortunately I've been crushed; it took some time, it was a hell of a ride, but here I am - crushed. As realization to what is happening enters your brain and it all clicks, your throat closes up, your chest feels crushed - it's difficult to breathe. You begin to go back over what has happened, and you wish somehow you were wrong. There is something about watching a love crumble that kills the spirit. You spend endless hours going back over every moment you can remember, looking for what went wrong. I don't think I have felt anything more painful than loving and needing someone that didn't love or need me. The person you had always been true to doesn't need you any more. Maybe they even have someone new. Some pain is the kind you can ignore, of course another is apparent and requires your attention. This is worse; it's everywhere and nothing can shake it. We live and grow by interacting with others, and it is other people that hurt us the most, but without others then we are the same as nothing. People cause us pain, by avoiding people we avoid pain, for a time. However loneliness is a type of pain as well, and it can grow to become more than the pain caused by other people. I've never been partial to crying a lot, but I have and I feel very alone - my connection is gone, my soul is torn. It's my fault as much as hers, but still poignantly painful. Someday maybe I'll be needed again. I don't regret falling in love, I regret not knowing what was happening, until it was too late. For now I am alone. ::devoid8